I see you have come around again, zapping me of physical strength and ability. I now have come to expect you. Weekly, you cause me to sit there, with trembling limbs and exhaustion. I should have known when I was moving out of my place, you would be there, causing pain to my hands, color disappearing from my face, and motivation fleeing my body. For the last few months, this was normal and you made me frustrated because “WEAK” was not in my vocabulary!
Through those moments, weakness actually helped me. Surprised? So am I! See through my weakness, I found what truly matters. Through my weakness I found strength.
“My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.”
2 Cor. 12:9a
It is in my weakness that I could not do anything. For my independent self, that was a pain in and of itself. Knowing an autoimmune disease is part of my new normal, means I have got to accept my weaknesses. My weakness gave me a perspective that some things are not in my control and not my job to do. They are in His hands. So now, I get to come in my weakness and give it back to Him, the One who allowed me to experience it. In return, I see His strength and His power!
“I delight in weaknesses…for when I am weak, then I am strong”
2 Cor. 12:10
